Worth the wait...

It’s incredibly warm today; and another thing that’s warm- since I’m being all punny, is my heart.

Yes, my heart is warm. Very warm.

I had my first kiss today and it was magical.

It was at a castle. How much more magical does that get?

Call me old school or a loser, but I was not gonna let some random mack with me after a drunken stupor. To add, I'm incredibly indecisive. Maybe I'm doing this wrong, but it's right for me. I don't move fast, because I calculate every move in a crazy kind of way.

I'd rather spend time thinking and waiting to make something perfect than later fixing the mistakes I've made. Yes, I'm trying to battle the curse of being a perfectionist. It stops me from doing so many things and taking risks that could make for a good experience. 

It’s so amazing to find a person who will accept you the way you are but also willing to help you improve and become a better you.

I just wanna go out in the street right now... and I want to tell every girl who may be crying herself to sleep because she’s “forever alone”- I want to tell her to wait. I want to tell her to not do anything stupid, not to do anything that she wouldn't be okay with telling people about in the years to follow without feeling remorse.

Because good things do come to those who wait. Patience is key. 

There’s always a truth to clichés, no matter how generic and silly they sound.

Become comfortable with being alone, and become okay with the idea of going through life alone, because you are your own person at the end of the day. You need to stay true to yourself and your promise to never settle for something unless it genuinely feels right. You need to follow your intuition, look inside your soul and find the strength to remain true. 

Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise- put into practice all that you learn. 

Anyway, I can certainly say that the wait was worth it.

It’s just so amazing to see someone who will take your insecurities and just turn them into these qualities about you. And you are willing to do the exact same, even more for them. 

If I knew how good the feeling of acceptance would be, if I had to wait, if waiting was the only option- I would wait my entire life.  Because there is no better feeling than the feeling of being truly loved. Loved by a significant other, or even God.

I think I got to experience what sacrifice means on a level of some sort. 

No action ever goes for granted.

I don’t want to say that I’m in a frame of mind where I’m like in love and in a daze.

I’m really HAPPY, I feel like I’m finally mature enough to have a truly dedicated relationship.

I mean, I’m not that mature yet. I don't mean to get too ahead of myself, I am not an expert by any means. There is so much for me to learn.

I always used to think that the best learning is done alone & on your own. I'll always be a feminist activist at heart.

However, I’m finally starting to realize that if it’s the right person, learning can still be done and the right person will not impede on your journey. That person will encourage you and you will learn even more.

I don’t think a relationship should drag you down. This is actually the sort of mindset I used to have.

I used to think, “Oh if I get a boyfriend, I won’t be successful.”

I always thought that. And now, I feel differently about it. Which is good, I guess. 

I’m just in awe.  A W E

To have someone seem to be totally okay with you talking for 500 hours is something pretty cool.

I haven’t really experienced love before, so I don’t know if this is a normal feeling.

Maybe I’m experiencing what everybody else kind of experiences when they fall in love. All I can say is, that the feeling is so good. Nothing like I have ever experienced before. 

I don’t want to be wrong in saying that I think I found my “soul mate.”

Ah, I sound like such a hopeless romantic.

I am not a romantic person but this is just making me express things that I never thought I would express; it’s making me feel things that I never thought I would feel. It’s just an amazing feeling. There aren't enough words to describe this utter bliss.

The right person makes you look at life through a different lens.

The wait is worth it, depending on what kind of person you are, no matter what you may be waiting for. Even if you're waiting for a new car, your dream job, a girlfriend, a yummy meal at a restaurant. 

If you’re putting anything off because it’s something important to you personally and you want to do it when the time is right- then, stay true to your choice. The right person will respect that wish and your choice will mean so much more to you. The right person will see something that you've been putting off as an asset rather than something bad or a disadvantage.  The right person will be patient. Just like you have been. It's all about respecting a choice, a promise. If someone respects your promise, I can only hope that the person also sees it as a virtue to your character, the type of person you are; a person of merit, and the decisions you choose to make. This isn't just about the "right person", it's about the "right people"- the type of people you should be surrounding yourself with, your friends and colleagues. Ones who fulfill your life and make you a better person. 

I always thought that all men were pigs, but this boy is not a pig. He’s the classiest, funniest, and most understanding guy I know. He’s just so charming, everything he says.

It feels so good to talk to someone and not feel like you have to hold anything back. Because in the back of your mind you know that they’ll accept you no matter what. In times of wrongdoing, they won't be afraid to tell you the painstaking truth and put you back on the right path. It’s the most liberating feeling because you know and trust that you won’t lose them. Because after all, they are your soul mate and if you lose them, then they lose you. Good or bad qualities, you two complete and complement each other in ways that can’t be replicated. I’m just in utter awe.

And I don’t know what I did to deserve this. I guess I waited, and I mean- it wasn't all that hard to wait, but it was worth it. SO WORTH IT.