Worth the wait...

It’s incredibly warm today; and another thing that’s warm- since I’m being all punny, is my heart.

Yes, my heart is warm. Very warm.

I had my first kiss today and it was magical.

It was at a castle. How much more magical does that get?

Call me old school or a loser, but I was not gonna let some random mack with me after a drunken stupor. To add, I'm incredibly indecisive. Maybe I'm doing this wrong, but it's right for me. I don't move fast, because I calculate every move in a crazy kind of way.

I'd rather spend time thinking and waiting to make something perfect than later fixing the mistakes I've made. Yes, I'm trying to battle the curse of being a perfectionist. It stops me from doing so many things and taking risks that could make for a good experience. 

It’s so amazing to find a person who will accept you the way you are but also willing to help you improve and become a better you.

I just wanna go out in the street right now... and I want to tell every girl who may be crying herself to sleep because she’s “forever alone”- I want to tell her to wait. I want to tell her to not do anything stupid, not to do anything that she wouldn't be okay with telling people about in the years to follow without feeling remorse.

Because good things do come to those who wait. Patience is key. 

There’s always a truth to clichés, no matter how generic and silly they sound.

Become comfortable with being alone, and become okay with the idea of going through life alone, because you are your own person at the end of the day. You need to stay true to yourself and your promise to never settle for something unless it genuinely feels right. You need to follow your intuition, look inside your soul and find the strength to remain true. 

Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise- put into practice all that you learn. 

Anyway, I can certainly say that the wait was worth it.

It’s just so amazing to see someone who will take your insecurities and just turn them into these qualities about you. And you are willing to do the exact same, even more for them. 

If I knew how good the feeling of acceptance would be, if I had to wait, if waiting was the only option- I would wait my entire life.  Because there is no better feeling than the feeling of being truly loved. Loved by a significant other, or even God.

I think I got to experience what sacrifice means on a level of some sort. 

No action ever goes for granted.

I don’t want to say that I’m in a frame of mind where I’m like in love and in a daze.

I’m really HAPPY, I feel like I’m finally mature enough to have a truly dedicated relationship.

I mean, I’m not that mature yet. I don't mean to get too ahead of myself, I am not an expert by any means. There is so much for me to learn.

I always used to think that the best learning is done alone & on your own. I'll always be a feminist activist at heart.

However, I’m finally starting to realize that if it’s the right person, learning can still be done and the right person will not impede on your journey. That person will encourage you and you will learn even more.

I don’t think a relationship should drag you down. This is actually the sort of mindset I used to have.

I used to think, “Oh if I get a boyfriend, I won’t be successful.”

I always thought that. And now, I feel differently about it. Which is good, I guess. 

I’m just in awe.  A W E

To have someone seem to be totally okay with you talking for 500 hours is something pretty cool.

I haven’t really experienced love before, so I don’t know if this is a normal feeling.

Maybe I’m experiencing what everybody else kind of experiences when they fall in love. All I can say is, that the feeling is so good. Nothing like I have ever experienced before. 

I don’t want to be wrong in saying that I think I found my “soul mate.”

Ah, I sound like such a hopeless romantic.

I am not a romantic person but this is just making me express things that I never thought I would express; it’s making me feel things that I never thought I would feel. It’s just an amazing feeling. There aren't enough words to describe this utter bliss.

The right person makes you look at life through a different lens.

The wait is worth it, depending on what kind of person you are, no matter what you may be waiting for. Even if you're waiting for a new car, your dream job, a girlfriend, a yummy meal at a restaurant. 

If you’re putting anything off because it’s something important to you personally and you want to do it when the time is right- then, stay true to your choice. The right person will respect that wish and your choice will mean so much more to you. The right person will see something that you've been putting off as an asset rather than something bad or a disadvantage.  The right person will be patient. Just like you have been. It's all about respecting a choice, a promise. If someone respects your promise, I can only hope that the person also sees it as a virtue to your character, the type of person you are; a person of merit, and the decisions you choose to make. This isn't just about the "right person", it's about the "right people"- the type of people you should be surrounding yourself with, your friends and colleagues. Ones who fulfill your life and make you a better person. 

I always thought that all men were pigs, but this boy is not a pig. He’s the classiest, funniest, and most understanding guy I know. He’s just so charming, everything he says.

It feels so good to talk to someone and not feel like you have to hold anything back. Because in the back of your mind you know that they’ll accept you no matter what. In times of wrongdoing, they won't be afraid to tell you the painstaking truth and put you back on the right path. It’s the most liberating feeling because you know and trust that you won’t lose them. Because after all, they are your soul mate and if you lose them, then they lose you. Good or bad qualities, you two complete and complement each other in ways that can’t be replicated. I’m just in utter awe.

And I don’t know what I did to deserve this. I guess I waited, and I mean- it wasn't all that hard to wait, but it was worth it. SO WORTH IT. 

The summer of '69 ... okay '2014

Oh em gee, has time ever flown so quickly. My last post I was talking about graduating high school and the ventures of “first year” (along with the freshman 15 ;) ) and here I am talking about uhhh… graduating university soon. 

 

I’m guess I’m sort of a grown up (other than I still enjoy the occasional prank phone call and water gun fight). I have an office, and a swivel chair, and I drink coffee in the morning like my other tuxedo counterparts. 

 

My creativity is dwindling, I fear. But I’m ever so grateful for this opportunity at the ON LEG for it gave me an insight into what to love and what not to….. eh. 

 

My cousin is visiting from Europe, and since this is the second time she is here & I’m much older with a paycheck- we like to go on adventures. It’s amazing how many hidden treasures in Toronto I have yet to discover due to living in suburbia. Ahem, Etobzzzz. 

 

This summer I’ve dedicated to trying to find my passion, whatever it may be....and I only hope that the universe works in my favour and helps me on this “hipster” journey of self-discovery. 

 

Haaahaaa. 

 

Well, one thing that hasn’t changed is my short attention span- and on that note, this “blog post” (can it even classify as that?) or “blurb” shall come to an end.

 

Till next time, (that is after I go through the rigorous process of finding out my forgotten password), I will blog again. My preference is VLOGGING THOUGH, oh yes, the new phenomenon.

So fun, except for the computer space that is lacking to edit on a legitimate program. 

 

Okay, enough chit chat. 

BUH-BYE!

Mamma Mia- Been a while!

Yo Yo Yo. Sup?

Oh my goodness, it's been forever.

All thanks to me forgetting about this blog & then me forgetting my password to it.

I came across it after Google-ing my internet name. Turns out, there is another Tatiana out there in the world who uses the same "tatiana12321" name as me. Coinkydink!

Anyway- Just 'cause I am 87% sure that I won't come back to this blog in the next 29812 years, I'm going to mention that I have graduated high school.

I am now in that big place that we've all heard about from both parents and teachers.

That place where "nobody cares" and you have to be "independent"

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Guessed it?

University. Why Yes. It really isn't as bad as they say.

In fact, there's some people who attend this institution which really make me question- WHY!?!

Sure, there is more pressure because here you're actually legitimately preparing for the real world. But it's really not all that bad considering the fact that there's 4000+ other students who are in the same position as you.

Now, I don't know about you (whoever is reading this), but speaking from my experience, when in elementary school someone did really bad on something, and you did too- you high-fived each other.

See where I am getting at?

When there's so many other peeps out there lost & confused & totally going through what you are, you don't feel alone & people actually care.

ANYWAY wow enough talking about schoolio.

Wowee Halloween is tomorrow & I am actually considering dressing up and collecting some candayyyyyy. Who knows? This may or may not be the last time I will pass as a "kid" EVAR!?!

We will see how it goes.

Meanwhile, I shall head to bed.

PEACE OUT MA FRANZ<3

~Tatiana

Do what you feel like doing!

First weekand of school. WOO!
Hello last year of Saturday school & first year at CYM SKLAD WEEKAND :)
Both were fun, can't complain!
But when I got back.... attempted to floss my teeth..... the dental floss wouldn't go ALL THE WAY UP one of my top back teeth. My first assumption was that there was something stuck up there (I've had rock-like minerals fall out of my teeth). I picked and flossed and most of my mouth was covered in blood. It felt like my back tooth was wiggling! OH NO .. I left it alone and it was still bugging me so I took a towel and just chewed on it. 'Cause that's what I felt like doing!
It helped:) My tooth doesn't hurt anymore ! YEY
Ok.
Apparently my aunt if going to give birth to her THIRD CHILD XD
My grandma/mom are on the phone with her atm ^_^
This is intense!
K, I should head to bed because it's SO HARD keeping my eyes open in English class.
Goodnight<3

OH & GR.11 is awesome so far!

Boo!

Tisk tisk, I haven't wrote all summer!
A LOT HAS HAPPENED.
Alright so as summer started I went to summer school for a new credit course for one week only!
I know, ''WHAT WAS THE POINT OF THAT!?''
Well you see, a trip to Europe was planned last minute (as always) and I quit summer school.
It was fun since most of my friend's went, the worst part was waking up tho.
The week after summer school I would stay up really late and wake up at 1 P.M.
I think it was the 18th or something & I went to Ukraine, it was so fun! Family Reunion <33333
When I came back I spent my hours hanging with friends/family or on the computer.
Sorry that I'm not typing much, I'm just tired. and OH I haven't updated because I forgot my password :$ Finally something hit my head tho and I suddenly remembered XD
School in 2 days! WOOOOT Grade.11 ^_^
Goodnight!

Exams almost done !

Wow ! I cannot believe myself!
Exams aren't even over & I'm thinking it's summer ;(
I've become so lazy, it's becoming a serious problem.
Today I didn't do any school work & it's already 12:53 PM
I'm so dissapointed in myself LOL.
I wanna go to summer school so I can actually do something with my summer, and then I'm off to Europe :)
Anyways, I have my English exam Monday & Science exam Tuesday <-- yey ! :l
I have so many plans and things to do this summer, hopefully I'll get them done :P
Kayyyy, I must go now !

L8R LUvz <23

YoYoYooooo!

Okay, why am I doing this? I don't know.
Should I be ''blogging'' at this specific time? No.
Why am I doing this? I don't know !!! Gahh, I'm such a procrastinator !
I should be writing my essay but I came across a website that had some codes to pimp out your stuff online :P
So here I am, just changed my blogspot layout and decided to write a new post.
A lot has been going on lately, school is almost done and summer is to come!
I'm going to Europe which is exciting I guess :) Ulia is going to be there too and I am going to try my best just to see her. I'm staying 90 km. from where she is going to be residing.. not too far?

Grade 10 is almost over :( The semestered scheduled year passes by SO FAST !!!!
Anyways, today is Wednesday and on Friday it is Anastasia's BIG JAM !!!!
Yey ! I'm so excited XD

Which for some reason reminds me, I have a very late blockbuster movie to return ASAP.
Alright, I should be going now and getting back to essay writing.

Peacccccce Ya'll